I have been a fool
To have loved, sought
And even thought
That I found you

For you were here
All the time
More near
than the distance
love creates

You come like a storm
Leaving sweet pain
As you disappear.
Flowers I picked
As I waited remain
hidden with my tears!

उरी न जरी
उरली आता
शब्दांची
निर्जीव आठवण..

सांज दाटुनी येता
दरवळते
अजुनी जिवंत
तुझ्या स्वच्छंद
अबोलपणाची साठवण!

Waiting

A drop waits
For a moment
On the tip
Of a leaf
So sweet its anticipation
Helplessly reflecting
the entire sky!

I can't wait for you,
That long!

Die on me
O Beloved!

For only your death
Can solve this illusion
Of love!

Flee, flee
From the places
I search for you!

So that I may know.. 

What has silenced
These huge mountains

That I may drink
Not the water
But the eternal novelty
Of the gushing streams

That I may fill my lungs
Till they burst
With that which inhabits
The windless mountain tops

That I may sway,
Sway till I release
The mad laughter
That spills from the tree tops
And rises and falls
with the dust!

Blue skies
Are empty
Rain clouds
Unrelenting
Fill my eyes

Shadows play often with light
And the breeze with the leaves
But when I ask who plays on my heart strings
They all remain silent..


I can't see
And I can't hear
But wherever I look
I see them all eyes closed
Drowning in the song

No music
No words
Not even a singer here.
This song is that simple!

I took all our memories
(my hands don't tremble anymore!)
And blew through them
Till tiny specks of joy flew
And disappeared into light!

Then extracting the pain
To the very last drop
Carefully bottled it
For years to remain..

Hidden from light
Yet not forgotten,
Waiting for years to roll by
And turn it into wine!

This gush of wind
Sudden and simple!

Transporting
All that has fallen
From nowhere
To nowhere

Tears of this simple shock
Flow unstoppably
At the silent and endless
Uncovering
Of nothing!

बहुत जताई
मोहब्बत,
बस करो दिल में अब,
ये प्रेम की बरसात।

जो बह सकता था
बह गया वो सब कुछ,
अब तो आसू भी
खालीही बहते है।

हो अगर
दिलवाले सचमुच,
इस दिल को
मिटाने की तरकीब बता।

रात्र आणी दिवस

रात्रीला दिवसाची आठवण येते
दिवसाला मात्र रात्रीचा विसर पडतो,
तर मग दिवस, हे रात्रीला पडलेले
जणू स्वप्नच नव्हे काय?

दिवसाच्या उन्हापासून
झाडाखाली सावली मिळते.
रात्रीच्या चांदण्यापासून
वाचण्याची सोय नाही!

दिवसाचे असत्य पेलायचे असेल
तर रात्री अशाच,
जागून काढाव्या लागणार! 

लगता था यहाँ,
तुमसे,
मिलना और बिछडना,
दोस्तों का अक्सर
आना जाना,
चिजों का पाना
और खोना है।

ये सब तो झूठ है।

यहाँ
न किसी का
आना जाना,
पाने और खोने का
सपना पुराना,
मेरे दिल को
फिर भी अब तक
इसीने सँवारा
है।

यहाँ तो बस
मेरा
कभी होना,
और कभी न होना,
सदियों से
सपने को सुहाना
बनाए है।

Home

Bliss is my home

And the way back home
Need not be searched
Tired feet will find their way
On their own!

Secret

My tears are a secret
They hold my secret,
secret from me,
How to let them fall!

Hush.
Not a word.. Not a word,
Just this not saying,
Not just says it
But says it  all!

रात्रीचे चांदणे
दिवसा अजून शिल्लक आहे
विसावा कुठे मिळाला नाही तरी चालेल!

या वार्याच्या झुळुकेनी
अलगद उचलून धरले आहे
सारे काही आता उधळून गेले तरी चालेल!

वाहणे हाच जणू
आता धर्म आहे
दिशाभूल आता झाली तरी चालेल!

तुझ्या आठवणीचे धुके
दाट होता, वाट दिसेनाशी होई
आता घरी परतलो नाही तरी चालेल!

आता कशाची भिती
मी माझ्यात आसा उरलो तरी किती
तुझे दर्शन झाले नाही तरी चालेल!

आहे खरे
सांगायचे खूप काही
बोलण्यास मात्र
आता न उरे
नावही कधी मज
माझे न स्मरे
मन नुसतेच बावरलेले

नयनांत गुंफुनी
श्वास माझे
प्राण हरवले!
अडकलेल्या श्वासांना
भाषेचे,
शब्द गवसले नाही!

आज घननिळ्या नभानी
धरतीला वाहिले सर्वकाही
थबकलेल्या मला
एक आश्रूही वाहता आला नाही
गहिवरून उठलेल्या
प्राणांना
बुडण्याची सोय नाही

चार थेंबांचे
निमित्त साधून
मातीलाही गंध फुटला
आठवणींचा घन
मानाच्या आंगणात
भान हरपून बरसला!

अशा अवेळी पावसाने
न जाणो
काय वाहून नेले
मला मात्र
तेच आभाळ
पुन्हा नव्याने
स्पष्ट दिसू लागले!

The ancient tree
bends eagerly
Over the river
And drips through
Leaves that fall
 of their own
And the ones
that are blown

With a sudden gush of wind

There..
Sit with me
catching silently
an occasional word
That I drop helplessly
And watch it
Muddle up
the mute reflections
Thrown by your eye!

You!

Sometimes like an echo
Of a far reaching bell,
Sometimes like a drop
That plop! and disappeared
As it fell..

Sometimes spreading
Like a smile
That connects the heart to the sky
Sometimes fading
Into a distance
Like an endless sigh

From top to bottom
And side to side
From inside out
And outside in
All that is true
Is utterly you
Right here
Sometimes far
And sometimes near

Sometimes
I dig you out
And sometimes
You drown me in!

Though the vast blue sky
Does not exist
The still and silent lake
Is full of it, full of it!

To search the whole existence,
Is all in vain.
The beloved in the lover's heart
Is ever present!

Shy!

So that only you may hear
My poem is the softest I can speak
Not much to say..
In my heart, to let you peek

And what you see
Tell not even me
Hold it to your heart
Instantly!

And say nought
as you go
Pretending
you don't know

Embrace

Your embrace
opened up
Not my heart
But an ancient wound!

Drew a cry
That I couldn't utter
As I fell right through
This cruel lie..

.. Of seperate existence.

Time slowed
And tears flowed
And as we recovered..

You got up and left
With me sitting here
With an incomplete thought
Holding an unshed tear!

दोन मनातलं अंतर
शब्दात का कधी मोजता येईल?

दोन शब्दातलं अंतर
मनात का कधी साठवता येईल?

रात्र हरपल्यावर
दिवसाचे गणीत चुकल्यावर
श्वास असे बावरल्यावर
आकाश फाटल्यावर
आणी खरोखरच डोकं फिरल्यावर

...

अशा निरुत्तरित मनाला
प्रश्नांचा विसर पडल्यावर

मनापासून जरी बोल्लो
तरी मनातलं का कधी सांगता येईल?

Blinded by that beauty
Overtaken by that flood
In that heart wrenching embrace
My Beloved was lost

Taking refuge
In songs of your love
A soothing distraction
From that heart stabbing presence

Death

A gentle awakening  

A sweet surprise
An ultimate relief
Into a clear sunrise

Of death

A fragrance overpowering
All senses and thought.
This falling or arising,
An unburdening long sought

Into death

Where waiting is over
An end of parting
The only uniting
In this so called departing

Called death

With open arms
As I greet
What is long promised
At master's lotus feet! 

Unrelished!

Unshackled and free

And yet fearing even to look out, 

Through the door you left open
Long ago for me!

In joy and sorrow
And love and pain
Of losing and finding
Again and again
Life goes by
And I remain 

Unspent! 

Bach

I don't know from which
Unseen heavens
And what unthinkable bliss
You poured out your immortal songs 

Forgive me
For after many years
I still paint my puny joys and sorrows
With the same radiant colours.

A ray of light!

Painful, like a sudden ray of light
That hits the eye
His voice as it overtook
the mountains
and spread across the sky,

Uprooting me from my slumber
Made me speechless stand
Trapped..
in the grip
Of the eternal!

And then..

Like a rainbow disappearing
Rapidly
Leaving no trace
Was lost
Into the distance

And back to the surface..

Came the voice
Of wheels and steel,
And creaking and squeaking
Of mindless machines
And machine like minds.

Invisible

Every wavering shadow
that flickers
Lights up something

Every floating cloud
That drifts aimless
Points to something

Every drop of rain
That disappears
Washes down something

Every dream
That confounds
Wakes up something

Every vacant space
That fills up
Carries something

In broad daylight
I rub my eyes
And yet I cannot see
I cannot see

As I look into your eyes
Breathing your silent smile
Each moment that slips
here from my hand

Means something!

Everything!

Still Awake!

The night stares
With a million stars
And the wind
in loud whispers
Hushes even
the lost strands
Of my thought..

..for you have slept long ago
And I sit here still,
Lost, awake and blinking!

मला दे की थोडं !

काय  ते नाही माहित,

पण मला दे कि थोडं

हा चंद्र  नको.

हा तर नेहमीचाच ,

तुला दिसलेला दे.

हि फुले नको,

तुला ज्यांनी जिंकले

तीच शोधून दे.

हे अखंड पसरलेलं नको ,

चांदणं मला फक्त ,

तुझ्या डोळ्यात साठवलेलं दे.

तुझ्या डोळ्यांआड जे लपलं

ते हरवण्याआधी,

केसातून जे झिरपलं

ते झटकण्याआधी,

तुझ्या रुसण्यातून जे पुटपुटलं

तुझ्या हसण्यातून जे उसळलं

ते तुला पण समजण्याआधी,

तुझ्या श्वासातुन  जे थरथरलं

ते स्थिरावण्याआधी,

तुझ्या मनात जे फुल्ल

ते शब्दात बांधण्याआधी,

मला दे की थोडं !

Unsaid

This moonlight that lights up..
Not for finding the way
This moonlight for getting lost..

These words not for telling
But for forgetting
what I would rather say..

This gentle breeze that came unasked
This wild fragrance that left me dumb,

I give you!

I give you this breeze,
This wild intoxicating fragrance
This drunken moon to drink..

But I can't say how it feels
To be with you!

One day

One day
I will lose my mind
I promise
One day I will go mad

Every step sinks here
Into an infinite fall
One sweet moment I can see
I will go lose it all

One day I won't recognize
Your face, your voice
One day I know
I will take myself by surprise

One day it won't help
Being clever, Being wise,
That day I will close my eyes
and walk off the cliff...

When I look at you
I realize
What beats within me
Is not my heart

.. And one day I will scream

It will happen
One fine day my master
your love
Will take its toll!


                         

Lost!

When you are here
I wonder who you are
When you are gone,
I wonder if you really left

When you speak,
In your voice, I can't find words.
When you pause,
I can't find my breath

When you walk in without a warning,
I am buried deep in the ground.
When you sit still
I am lost in an unknown sky

When the breeze touches your hair,
When an ant walks by your feet,
When an unseen bird sings away as you speak,
I rejoice, I weep, I am drunk, my every bit!

How can I ask you my question
My only question is you.
Your coming and going
And being here and not
The memory and dreaming
Of all this and that,
Adds up to a question?

Let me sit here.
Pretend you don't know..
Only a little while more..

For the moment you turn your eyes
The earth cracks up,
The skies tear down,
And I wonder if I really am!